I tend to fuck up way too often, who cares about regrets now?

Does it feel good to you, to rain on my parade?

One day I'll wake up and realise that I should have never cared for you.
And I think that day was today.

Today at Burger King-

Collided straight, total body contact with some guy.
Found out he was assistant manager.

Sathrin realised her burger was only 6 inches when it stated in the advert it was supposed to be 7 inches.

"1 inch is a lot."

So, we both went to the counter and gently complained. The counter woman called the assistant manager. He didn't look too happy. (I don't know if it was because I smashed into him or it was because we wanted a new burger.)

" It is seven inches."
" It's not. We measured." (We did actually, with a ruler.)

In the end they gave us a complimentary meal, upsized fries and Sprite.

"It's a good day today."

Rushed home to do Geog slides/ worksheet but haven't even completed it yet, and it's way past the dateline of 5 pm. Jenny Lim will obviously minus our marks. Damnit.

Today found out in class that so many others like Junpyo. Min-ho fans unite! (:

It doesn't actually hurt.

Pop Princess.

I used to be happier. I can't remember. I think someday I will laugh about when I was 15.
I have nothing to distract myself with now, great.

School.
Believe me or not, I can't wait.

Pop princess I need you now, so baby turn your love up loud.

Sneaked into I love you, Man yesterday with my sister's IC. I am jailed at home with my dysfunctional brother, have to do chinese and draft up a timetable for the term. I swear I'm going to end up more nun-ish by the hour. Lee Min-ho will have to wait.

it's magic.

Love can be so overrated sometimes. Is love supposed to feel a certain way, not another? The heart is such a stubborn thing, mine insists to hold on to what's left. Last night, after weeks of long overdue feelings left alone, along with all the what-ifs, maybes and half-hopes, I've decided you're a good memory. But it's time to walk away. I know I'm the idiot for fucking up, but what's the use now? And at the same time I can't just switch back, delete the ugly parts I want to forget and move on with the rest of the world.
I can't.
Why do humans feel? Humans have emotions.
I can't help myself, call me pathetic. What the fuck with "I'm strong" and ruling the world. I can't even rule my own head, or my own heart.
And I thought I wasn't the kind who thought too much.

In other words-

Before the worst, before we mend,
Before our hearts decide it's time for us to love again,
Before too late, before too long,
Let's try to take it back
Before it all went wrong.

Hello everyone, just came back from M'ysia. (: It was good to escape for awhile, learnt how to play mahjong, and won my first round of the game(won plastic coins). Went to some remote village-y island with hundreds of mud skippers. Shared a room with bunk beds with all the cousins, got the hang of being a baby-sitter, watched seven episodes of BOF consecutively in the hotel toilet till real late, got pro at Taptap Revenge 2, played basketball and scored many 3-pointers, durian feast in a durian plantation. Basically, I loved it.

Ghost of Girlfriend's Past yesterday with Tashtljiadion got a little horny(not me) during the movie. I love the show, except during the sad parts Jia would go, "SAD,SAD,SAD!" in my ear. Hahaha. Became cheapskates and stole popcorn from other people, purposely went up to the Korean guy at the shop to get a free pink pen with a fluffy ball on top. Chatted about all our primary school's friends and updates. Probably it'll be December till wel meet again.

I still don't know what I'll wish for.

Meanwhile I'm determined to get higher than 10/30 for heymath.

About ten hours later:

AHAHAHA I GOT 25/30 FOR HEYMATH. HAH WEISZE. Beat you. 'Cept it's not even counted in CA and i got shit for Emath. Ugh. Haha.

Become so numb.

My fingers are super numb because I've been playing the guitar like mad. Hahaha. I suck at it! Not really actually. Nothing much to say, lazy to upload photos of birthday party on Sunday. Malaysia on Friday. Going to re-paint my nails bright red now. My supposed sleepover with Stef died. :(

Hold your head up high
You're never wrong
Somewhere in the right you belong
You would rather fight than walk away
What a lonely way to breathe the air
What an unlovely way to say you care
Now we're too far gone for me to save
And I never thought that we'd come to this

Maybe there's beauty in goodbye
There's just no reason left to try
You push me away
Another black day
Let's count up the reasons to cry
Look what you've missed, living like this
Nobody wins

Coordinated bimbos.

You're sickening.

Sprained my neck yesterday while playing Bungee run. Can't even turn my head now. PlayMAX was great! Just came back from Dion's, miss those three women. Miss our (almost) heart-to-heart conversations. I will keep all my letters next time, hahaha. Sathrin bought playboy earrings for us to wear to school. Yay. (:

Everyone, play Restaurant City!

I feel so boring, like there's nothing to talk about. I want to participate in Hair for Hope, except I haven't found a good wig. And I can't find my The Script CD, damn angry at myself. >:(

Shalom.

Going for playMAX later @ St Andrews Cathedral. (:

G.

Lesbian couple(WS and me) + shocked passerby(Den). HAHA.








Hohoho. (:






Sentosa was wykd.
We should do this more often.
<3

"Don't B late!"
"Don't be an S!"

FUCK.

I heard the best way to solve problems is to ignore them till they go away.

This is not my heart.

Hello days of melancholy and grey.

Went clubbing at Chinese Swimming Club. Hahahaha. Since all the food would be charged to my dad we ordered alot. Waffle, smoothie, chicken wings, prawn thingy beancurd.

Tomorrow! :D

Went to St James Power Station last night.

With my parents.

Sucked.

I can't wait till I'm 18.

Really, really can't.

To you-

Thank you for showing me things I never knew, emotions, feelings, happiness, laughter.
Thank you for caring, though I never asked you too.
Thank you for the billion millionth time again, for the hundreds of things you've done.
I won't forget you,
Not yet.

Maybe I should take myself seriously.
And everyone around me too.
And, quit playing games in my head.

Anyway-
Supposed to wake up at 2.30am to make pancakes with Shi Jie and brother. Didn't.

4.35am-
"Hurry wake up lah!"
"Shut up, go to sleep."
"Damn you. Fine."

So we made them in the morning. Probably made like 50, and couldn't finish. Hahaha.

Today's Math Day Part Two. I will die when Part Ten comes along.

-

I'm sorry.

Disengaged.

You feel so low you can't feel nothing at all.

I feel like vomiting. I feel sick. I can't find my The Script CD. >:(

Could have loved you all my life if you hadn't left me waiting in the cold.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TASHRYN-
I know this is belated but I don't have a phone to call you. Thanks for all those happy HGS-ian times, stupid and wonderful moments. Cheers to Nathan, Nicholas/Neighorse and nicnac. And with Vaish and Shermz, making fun of Wind and Kins(bet you'll never forget this). P6 was an awesome year, wasn't it. So hey, stay pretty and Jun Chun-y, I know you will. Happy Fifteen my dear, love you to the moon.

-

Am I never going to be fucking good enough for you?
I explain, you don't listen, you don't believe.
Not good enough, not pretty enough, not smart enough.
Do I really disgust you this much?

bRYAN. The best of both worlds.




Love can't wait. Neither can I.

Today met WS after Amath tuition, went to Hweegek's. I miss her so much.
Bought for the three of us those cliche necklaces, the three in a bunch, "Best", "Friends", and "Forever". WS insisted on taking the "Forever" one. Damn you. (:
I want a mood ring. That actually works. Someone, anyone, buy me one. Haha.
Watched 200 Pounds Beauty. YAY I LOVE THAT SHOW. :D Hahaha, I really like it.

WEISZE; here's my goodbye says:
go listen to tonight, tonight (no pun intended)

She treated me to waffles, and then we fed HG, fish sotong balls and chicken wings. Went home late.

Hannah Montana movie! Anyone who's not watching is in denial. Probably with the exception of Sathrin. Hope I can churn out enough excuses so that I can go out on Thurs and Sat. I've run out man.

I think Monday was wonderful. Every moment of it.

Have been playing CSI: NY The Game. Freaked me out. A little. No, actually alot. I mean computer-ed fake blood puddles can be scary too, okay. Hahaha.

"You miss him right?"

Yeah, I do.

Sometimes words simply can't express anything, nothing at all that you're feeling. Definitely need a mood ring now.