Hit me.

Just give me a damn good reason. Tell me why I feel so fucked up and angry. I'm sorry but I can't help it that I have expectations, or excitement, because I was looking forward to it.

Helpless. I want to learn how to grow up but I don't know how to. Grow up meaning independent meaning comfortable with constant shit around meaning PMS but don't show it. Meaning, able to handle things 'maturely'.

No mood to upload the piczx. Yes the ah lianiness just lightened the tension. Anyway, hope everyone is having a better time then I am! (:

Don't play with me. :(

Lightsticks.

Watchnight service was such a bore, played with sparklers afterwards but I seem to have lost interest in childhood reminiscing. Supper with James, HY and Samuel till 2. Heart to heart/bitch talk with sis for an hour about lots of people. It's (sadly) amazing that a thirteen year friendship can just disintegrate into nothing in a span of a few months. I look at you and I have no words to say. Siti came over today. Ended up having to teach that bimbo math. Then later met up with mum's clique. OKAY YAK YAK I AM JUST BLABBING ON ABOUT TODAY LIKE IT'S THAT INTERESTING. I'm doing stupid Smart Class Geog and it's killing me. Haven't made any resolutions yet. They are made to be broken. (: This is so freaking boring. I feel sticky and grumpy. Bleh. Have been shopping quite a bit. And just enjoying freedom. I want to do something wild and wacky, on impulse, and have fun doing it. Mich and I tried on bikinis today. Let's just say she's much more well endowed than I am. Getting wayyy too public now. It's in the genes. Yay CP in one hour plus!! ((:

I should delete this blog. Like who gives two hoots about what I'm doing today anyway. Gosh.

Sink!

I've been keeping myself busy. Mainly just all of those who are finally back for their hols. Miss them lots. That's one reason why I love year ends. Christmas was a rush, like the whole of this year. Carolling with boyz was good fun. Bugis with Siti today. Fun badges and Audrey Hepburn overloaded. Hahahaha.
Looks can be deceiving. I feel bad. Subconsciously superficially judging people. Bad bad bad.

Happy New Year everyone. (:
It is time for change.

Minoz.

Night of wonders(exaggeratedly of course) with a really handsome guy. Hehe.
You're the best, T.

Why is guarding your heart so hard?

I remember that time I spelt guard wrongly and den scolded the lights outta me. Hahaahhahaa. Thanks. (: My spelling improved loads after you jumped into my life.

HE'S BACK.

I know this might look a bit lame. But I love it. Samuel drew it for me. And I pleated his hair. (:
CHURCH CAMP WAS REALLY SUPER GOOD SPIRITUALLY AWAKENING kind of an experience. Slept half an hour last night, played with the boys. All the girls were tired, so I stayed up. Just played cards and talked lots of nonsense(i learnt lotsa boy lingo) then at about 6am we all couldn't go on anymore. So just took one corner of the couch to lepak. See I'm using malay already! Managed to make the guys watch Coffee Prince with me till 2. They were hooked, even James. Parent's Night was the hilarious. BOY MOOOOOSE and dancing to ai bu pa. I wish I could have more of these sort of fun days. I mean, I really really really learnt a lot. About people, mostly. And myself. Christmas is like NEXT WEEK?!?!?!?!?! I want to spend the rest of 2009 in the best possible way. Till sooner or later I'll see you, my avid readers or random passers-by. (: Kidding. I'm no celebrity. Grace asked me to go jogging with her. HAHAHAHAA. I mean. Wow.

"Why are you always so unnaturally nice to me?"

About 10 hours later

"I'm not going to answer that question."
"What question?!?!???!"

About 2 hours later

"Oooh that question. I don't want to know the answer."

And then I just had to delete it. I hate it when you get too damn close to me.

I'm going to let my eye bags touch the floor.