Wouldn't it be nice?

I CAN'T BREATHE WITHOUT YOU BUT I HAVE TO.

WEISZE; a roller coaster kinda rush says:
and it feels weirdly hot

Count to ten. says:
that's good.

WEISZE; a roller coaster kinda rush says:
like burn or something

Count to ten. says:
you're hot, at last!

Count to ten. says:
(:

Count to ten. says:
congrats.

Count to ten. says:
HAAHAHAH.

WEISZE; a roller coaster kinda rush says:
SHUDDUP

WEISZE; a roller coaster kinda rush says:
I WAS ALWAYS HOT KAY

As usual.

I'm not usually like this.

I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
And though I may not look like much
I'm yours
And though my edges may be rough
And never feel I'm quite enough
It may not seem like very much
But I'm yours

So ponned school, went out with Hui Ling and mum for dinner. I will die if I have to go to Wednesday tll class.

I'm talking too much to my mum. Hahaha.

During assembly-
" Are they singing in Malay?!"
" It's Spanish!"

Cycled Weisze to the bus stop, kept getting heart attacks on the way with all the cars. Later the chain came off and I had to fix it back. My hands were black with oil. Went to rub my face all over, got black finger streaks on my face which can't come off.

Damn the Mid-years.

On the other hand, I can't wait for the 13th either. :D

Fearless.

Long overdue. Credits to Weisze.

My gastric started working up again yesterday. I hate it. Can't skip meals anymore, just drank Green Tea frappe for lunch in the cinema. Haha. 17 again! I was laughing so hard I was squeezing WS's arm non-stop. Hahaha. The Alex guy looks like David A, I found out. I prefer the wine-sniffing guy to Zac Efron. Hehe.

Anyway, SS is shit. Good shit. Hahaha. Just kidding.

Saturday is boring. I won't try to pretend my life is busy and wonderful, 'cause it isn't. But it's definitely good enough for me. Really.

Cause I can’t help it if you look like an angel
Can’t help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel this magic I’ve been feeling since I met you
Can’t help it if there’s no one else
I can’t help myself

I'll probably only talk when I'm up to it.

I keep asking myself, is this how it's supposed to feel like?

And please, stop lying, to yourself, to me.

What's the use?

Saturday.

Spent sitting in front of the TV watching some Korean drama for about 3 hours straight. Haven't bothered getting any work done yet. Damn the MYEs.

15.

THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR MAKING MY FIFTEENTH SUCH AN AMAZING ONE, THANK YOU FOR ALL THE MIDNIGHT BIRTHDAY SMSES, CALLS, PRESENTS, PERFORMANCES AND HUGS. I don't know what I'll do without all of you.

Went to Billy Bombers after school, bill came to $109. Then they performed for me at the toilet, even incorporated dance moves into the lyrics. Hahaha. Thank you so much, every single one of you. (: After dinner at Clarke Quay, parents fetched me from tll, we went to The Cheesecake Cafe. I love that place. Talked and ate, reached home past 12.

Mix-up.

I do not want to be fifteen.
I want IKEA's $1.50 ice-cream now.
I have not even read till Chapter 12 of TKAM yet.

I love you.

I know this is a waste of space and my time, but Teen Vogue photo shoots are always so damn awesome.

Some snow would be nice.

Stolen.

i love EATING waterCRESS(WELL)!

Saw Mrs Foo, our Chem teacher at the All Saint's Memorial Hall today, with her daughter and mother. She didn't recognise me anyway. Haha.

BOTH OUR BIRTHDAYS FALL ON THURSDAY! It's so crazy, it really is.

I wonder how this week will turn out.

Three years ago, and three years later, we're still living just meters apart but it's been so damn long ago, I can't recall anymore.

SAY EXACTLY WHATS ON YOUR MIND & DON'T CHANGE IT.

1. You & your ex – It was a long time ago.
2. What are you listening to - You're so Gay- Katy Perry (AHAHHA I LOVE THIS SONG!)
3. Maybe I should – Bother about everything else/go to bathe/call you now.
4. I love – We all know, don't we. Hahaha.
5. I don't understand – about everything.
6. I have lost my respect for- My mum.
7. I last ate – Dinner.
IS YOUR/ARE YOU:

1. Is your hair wet?
Damp.

2. Is your cell phone right by you?
To my left.

3. Do you miss someone?
The person I should be missing is talking to me so no, I don't miss anyone.

4. Are you wearing chap stick?
Nivea Essential for sensitive lips. Hahahha.

5. Are you tired?
Exhausted.

6. Are you wearing pajamas?
No.

7. Are you mad?
Neither meanings. But probably crazy. (:

8. Are you upset?
Just the opposite.

HAVE YOU:

1. Recently done anything you regret?
Letting my family meet Bryan.

2. Ever lied?
Hundreds of times. No, that'll be lying too. Billions. Hahaha.

3. Ever kicked someone?
Yeah!

4. Ever tripped over your own feet?
YES. But I always manage to recover in time. (:

TODAY HAVE YOU.

1. Have you cursed?
The usual, casual 'fuck'? Haha.

2. Have you gotten mad at someone?
Many, many, many times.

3. Had a smoke?
No.

Ever wonder if you're someone's everything?
I know I'm someone's everything. I hope.

Last song played more then three times?
Boston by Augustana.

Last person to fall asleep with?
It was on the 21st of February.

Tie yourself to someone for a day, who is it?
I'm sorry if the answer's not obvious enough. Hehe. But the Guacamoles and HGSians too, kay. (:

Last time you were really happy?
Just today. When my whole face lights up, you have no idea how happy I am.

Ever skip class?
Does tuition count? That'll be uncountable.

When do you want to die?
Before 60.

Marriage?
25.

Did you take a nap today?
In my uncle's car.

Ever think about trying drugs?
Definitely.

Who got mad at you last?
Two boys who claimed they belonged in 'Men In Mental'. My brother and cousin, at the backseat with me.

Last car you were in?
Uncle's.

Last person to call you beautiful?
Pretty yes, beautiful, nope. I'll keep waiting though. Haha.

What color is your room?
Blue and green.

Where's your parents right now?
At Richard Stanley's funeral.

Could you use some sleep right now?
With someone sleeping beside me. Haha.

Who'd you have lunch with?
Extended family.

Does someone love you?
YES SOMEONE DOES! He said it so many times just today already. Haha, not showing off. (:

Remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed?
It was...incredible.

Do you like to cuddle?
Mmhmm.

Have you ever made out against a car?
No, but... HAHA.

Have you ever kissed someone you weren't dating?
Yes. Maybe. No.

Kissed someone that had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
Something like that.

Are you ticklish?
Yes!

Is the last person you kissed older than you?
Actually no, but I don't care.

Has anyone seen you kiss the last person you kissed?
Yeah, probably. It was in the MRT! Haha.

Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
Moments ago.

Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love?
Undoubtedly.

Besides your mouth, where is your favorite spot to get kissed?
My fingers, and forehead. (BRYAN I AM GOING TO BAN YOU FROM NOW ON. HAHAH.)

What’s on your bedroom floor?
Everything that shouldn't be.

When’s the next time you will kiss somebody?
Thursday.

Does your ex have a job?
Student. HAHA.

How many piercings do you have?
Two.

Ever kissed in the rain?
I hope I do soon.

Are you a jealous person?
More than I should.

Any plans for tomorrow?
Math supplementary, classes, talking on the phone with you.

Do you wear the hood on your hoodie?
Hardly.

If your best friend liked your ex, what would you do?
Why not?

Have you held hands with anybody in the past week?
Yesyesyes.

Do you like the last person you kissed?
I am in love with him.

Where is the person you have feelings for right now?
At home, Tiong Bahru something.

Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
We'll have to see.

Do you want any tattoos?
YES, NOW.

When is the last time you were in a photo-booth taking pictures with friends?
WEISZE! BLACK AND WHITE. (:

When's your birthday?
This Thursday, 16th.

What's the last thing you laughed at?
Myself. (According to Weisze, I'm a thing, not a human.)

Which of your friends is the easiest to talk to?
Fellow Guacamolians. Haha. (You're not my friend, so I can't put your name. Hhahaha.)

Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
I can't remember. But Weisze's good to have deep conversations with. Most of the time, anyway. Haha.

What was the first thing you thought this morning?
8th May.

What color are your eyes?
Dark brown?

Who do you hate currently?
Not hate, more of you-are-so-disgusting kind of way.

Do you get the recommended eight hours of sleep a night?
No, that'll be a sin. HAHA.

I MISS YOU.

"Look out of your window."

You are crazy. Waiting for me, squatting down in the alley, flashing many papers out of my window with 'I LOVE YOU' on it, running out of my house to meet you for a few seconds and running back.

It's raining. Pouring, so heavily.

I love you.

When you make me feel this way.

Now that you have access to my blog, it's difficult to post things. >:( Hahaa.

Wednesday- Sports Day! The best part was when the WS and Kimbo got tan lines from their red and black face paint for cheerleading. I really miss Guacamoles. We really should do the sitting-together-just-talking kinda stuff more. I think it's been the first time since this year, mostly 'cause I'm in 3/2 but who cares. We should stay this way. (:

Thursday- Had recess with fellow Red Cross-ers. HAHAHAHHA. FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE! Was an eye-opening experience. HAHA. Went to Cathay with my pinned fringe. Missed half of Confessions of a Shopaholic. Was super crowded with noisy girls. Went to Kovan Hub. Hhahaha. We intentionally wanted to get lost, and I've never been there. Was late for tll and Rebecca Lee gave me the knowing look. Reached home at 11, Bryan brought me back to Kembagan. Watched Hell's Kitchen 3 till 1am, talked on the phone till 2 plus.

Friday- After church went to Marine Parade house to paint! Painted the walls, cabinets, chairs and shit. Was forced to listen to 93.3 FM while doing so. There was like, 6 of us, I was the only one who was younger than 30 there. Fun stuff! Got paint on every possible part of my body. Can't get it off till now. Little cousins came over, blew bubbles with them, went to the park and had dinner. I'm dreading the day they will grow up into angsty teenagers like me.

I am in love with you, and you, in love me with me.

Happy Birthday.
It's been about three years already, Red Cross times and bubbletea shop bondings after trainings, sitting together with Hwee Gek at the back of 1/3 listening to Mrs Foo, our typical fights and squabbles, hugging and laughing, Cambodian times with your mum and brothers at the airport. And very recently our confessions and sharing sessions, 'cause you're experienced and I'm not. Hahha, BK forever. Or not. I'm not the scandalous one. (:
You're special and awesome, and I don't ever wanna forget you.
Happy Fifteenth, so what if you're just 8 days older than me? I caught up a long time ago, dear. Hahaha.
Love you.

PS. Do you still have your friendship bracelet? Yes, that one I bought in Cambodia. 'Cause I still have mine. Haha.

Bring on the turmoil.

I'm not giving my everything as I should.
Sigh.

I never liked Mondays anyway.

Truthfully I don't know how long everything's gonna last but I love you, and that's all I know.
Let's spend tonight on top of the world, we can do anything, we can be anything.
I need you tonight on top of the world.

Long overdue picture. I love you guys.

I'm having pizza for dinner. Home-made one with capsicums, and salad. Hmph.

I'm anxious, breathing hard. Call me already.

If I kissed you
Would fireworks fly
Woud angels sing with lollipops
Would dinosaurs cry
Would babies all gurgle in laughter and surprise
If I kissed you.


If I kissed you
What would Michaelangelo say
Would he still have sculpted David
Would we be immortalized in clay
Would the poets write of love like ours
Would John Donne have his say
If I kissed you

You could be one in a million
You could be the one for me
But l guess I'll never know if I never try
I guess I'll just have to grab you in my arms and kiss you.

If I kissed you
Would you lose track of time
Would you feel a surge of happiness
Running up your spine
Would you run naked in the street
with a tattoo of my name on your behind
If I kissed you.
Oh, if I kissed you
Yeah, if I kissed you.

Meine Liebe.

Spent yesterday during Red Cross with Siti at Parkway, rolled about on the floor at NTUC when half a pearl dropped out of her mouth. Got back, stayed in the Red Cross Room and totally ponned changing into RCU. Left early, went to the park. Alone. Hahaha. Got home, ate dinner, packed half of it, met B and left for Marine Parade Library. Hahha. Had to disguise myself with his fedora. Parents. Didn't stay long 'cause it was closing so went to the playground at the flats. Took taxi home at 10 plus, taxi driver was pissed off there were two young teenagers at the back of his taxi having fun. Clean fun lah, mind you. Haha.

Got home, my dad asked-

"So... where have you been hmm?"
"Uh. Tuition! Chinese orals coming up. "

Good girls are just better at lying.

8 May.